Anti-Resolution

I usually don't go in for resolutions - perhaps because it's too "what everyone else is doing" rebellious of me. This year, though, it seems God was trying to get my attention, from SKH mentioning it - to Micah last night - to the Holy Spirit bringing it to mind often in the past few months. I call it an anti-resolution because it's actually a resolution not to do anything, but to wait.

Waiting in Stillness:
SKH spoke to this in passing, but he encouraged students to wait upon the Lord. To stop doing, moving, thinking, planning, and just wait - in silence - quietly. I desire to meditate more, to feed upon His Word and store it up in my heart...and then be quiet and still my wandering, frantic thoughts.

Waiting in Time:
God's plans are perfect, but I like to try and (I somehow think) speed them up. I'm so sinful and self-reliant when it comes to waiting on God's timing and plans. I've realized this year is very much about waiting - waiting to see where Andy gets into a Masters in Teaching Program, where he gets a job, house building/buying, having kids...the list goes on. As everyone around me has babies, and I desire that for myself and Andy, I here God say, "wait. Trust me." We as Christians have to STOP looking to and living in the future (or the past)! My life will not be complete when I can paint rooms the color I want, or have children, or garden all day or write a book - it will be complete when I'm with Christ, and my life is joyful each day as I rely on Him!

Waiting on Him:
Micah's sermon was such an encouragement to me - I truly believe Christ will come again and I long for that, but not with an immediacy. I figure too many generations that have seen far worse times that we have (World War II, for instance - the French and American revolutions), so why should He come now? But why not? We don't fully understand the prophecies or how they will be fulfilled. Why couldn't the clouds roll back tomorrow afternoon and my Savior and King take me home?

I post this so you can all help hold me accountable. I am not patient. I'm a control freak and a planner. I struggle to find my joy in Christ alone, each moment - and though I think we are to rejoice in the good plans God has for us, we need to rejoice in the One who makes the plans, not the plans themselves. I want to LOVE trusting in and waiting on the Lord.